About Shiniko

Friends

The Unforgotten

"Friends are a very important role in your life" I have a lot of friends who have supported me in my life time and I honestly wouldn't be here if it were not for them..a short or long time knowing them it does not matter cause even the littlest things can make the biggest impact,
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-ScoutPeanut My bestfriend In the whole wide world if you had not stepped into my life I don't know if I would have been here today you have saved me countless times just talking to you makes me feel like there's someone in this world who understands me and who I can truly be myself around so thank you!!! not only for being my bestfriend but for saving me into what I would have become if it was not for you.. I know deep down your not ok but you always act ok around me its so strange your my bestfriend and sometimes I think your hurting because of me and it kills me inside I cant help it but just thinking abt it I feel this pain in my chest and im starting to cry rn... You out of any one in this world including my family have always been on my side you have always stuck up for me no matter what you have always done things you dont like just to please me and make me happy even though you have been going through hell in your mind...your someone who deserves the whole fucking world and I want you to know that if anything ever happened to you I would simply fade away It would pain me so much if you left your the only person in my life rn thats keeping me from doing anything rash peanut I love you with all my heart and if I had to rip my heart out to save someone it would be you In a heart beat you deserve everything you the most angelic fucking soul Ive met in this world we met by fate and were best friends by choice If you die I die I love you scout just know that you are so much more than I could have ever wished for I want you to have the best life possible and everything ive dont to this point in my life has also been for you to theres not a second in my life I dont think abt you.. I always wish the best for you peanut ily...
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-Damien/Death I know I don't really talk to you and tbh you deserve such a better friend then me you have been in my life for about four years now through thick and thin you remained by my side even when I'm not there or not texting you back you are worth everything in this world and you need to understand that talking to you makes me so happy and all I want in this world is for you to be happy and not sad anymore..
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-TeenWolfGaming we have been through hell and back, and I know I've put you in hell countless times and I'm sorry, you are such a good person you have made me think laugh cringe get mad danm you have made me the rainbow you have made me feel every emotion in a min lol congratulations but seriously you need to be here everything you going up against rn is not the end of the world you are an amazing guy and you deserve so much more than what you have and get talking to you makes a sad part of the hole in my heart fill up with joy you mean a lot to me so plz stay!
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Scifer you may never read this lmao and I for sure hope you never do lol.. But you being in my life felt like I was back in the cold war days fighting with myself.. lol and I'm sorry I got so attached to you that I was slowly ruining myself and you I hope one day you can forgive me! you have made my life feel like a blessing when you came into it you put up with me for so long danm! you made me understand the way life is and the worlds sad truth at the same time as you were worried abt me in the conditions I kept being put in and as you were dealing with your own problems I was the cherry on top to where it all came crashing I'm sorry I hope your doing good from the bottom of my heart thank you for crossing paths with me even if it was just for a little bit (:.
Just know scifer that you made me see the world in a different way and if it was not for you I would not have learned to this day thank you you were gods gift even if it was just temporary I still cherish how kind you were with me...
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-Zyshale my male bestie woo do I have things to say you are fucking out of this world, your unique you never once judged me for who I am I love your presence you being in my life has cured a bit of my sadness it may feel like I don't wanna talk to you at times but that's not true I distance myself from people because I don't want anyone to leave my life again please understand that you are a single wish in heaven and you mean the world to me..
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-Lonely_Soul you are a good spirit you have talked to me abt as much as you could handle lol ill always be thankful that you are in my life every time we talk I feel like I can be myself around you as well you listen to me even though your awkwardly shy lol talking to you makes me feel confident in myself actions thank you for being there for me and protecting me its a blessing.
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-Jaxton/Niko I will always know you as niko I'm sorry, you have been there for me for a long time now.. you always strive to make me feel better and even though you feel like your a bad friend to me your not.. You put a smile on my face one that never washes away.. you make me feel alive your that one person in my life that when I talk to you just get it you always laugh at my bad jokes you always listen to me when I'm crying or am in pain.. your someone who I always look up to no matter what you are so important to me and I just wish I could make you happy and smile and it hurts my heart when I feel like I cant and I'm not good enough so I'm sorry if I'm not the best friend you could have asked for and I'm sorry for ever hurting your feelings.. I'm always here for you if you ever need me just know that please...
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-Bubba we have known each other for awhile we were kinda close back then and then never talked again lmao jk we got pretty close after you came back we don't have the best texting times with each other but I hope your good, genuinely good every time your around me I feel like I can just let everything in my past go and I'm more calm so it does make me sad when you leave but I'm grateful for having a person as kind as you in my life..
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-Kruziikal this may sound dumb but this is the first time in the time I've known you were I understand you, everything you told me I understand I get your going through hell I get your so fucking angry at the world.. but you know more than anybody deep down in your heart that there are good people left in this world so don't ever give up just because the world is constantly punching you in the danm face cause the moment you give up the moment you lose the battle of everything you have fought for in this life. you are an amazing friend and someone who is very dear to me you understand me and I can finally open my eyes and understand a lot thank you...
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Torinosu your very strange in fact so strange that its really weird, heh! I mean like that in a good way I cant lie you have helped me with a lot of shit so I do appreciate it thank you for being in my life even with your weird egotistic presence lol (: all jokes.. you have made me question myself alot and I mean ALOT!! of the random crap you pull out of ur ass but hey! it has some uses you make me laugh smile cringe thank you and I hope I do the same for you little tor tor...
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-Koala if your reading this just know your presence in my life has helped me a fuck ton, your there you have such a warm comforting feeling abt you I cant help but get drawn to you its like a very nice vibe.. you make me feel safe when I'm around you and I miss the old times that we were really close I miss you a fuck ton as well I hope your doing well.. I mean really well you mean a lot to me just remember that...
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-Gman Hey its Hannah Hannah baker I'm about to tell you the story of my life more specifically why my life... HAHAH JK JK I hope your doing well thank you for being in my life you always support me no matter what, you take me into new environments and show me the wolrd Cough -VRChat world sorry lol but its really fun hanging out with you I feel like I put myself into new situations when I'm around you and I like that feeling thank you!!
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-Lil bro this is for you Lukir I hope your doing good, I miss you tons and I appreciate your help for literally everything I'm very embarrassed rn lol >: I hope you live the life you want and I will 100 percent play Minecraft with you soon I promise.. you mean the world to me your constantly checking up on me and making sure I'm ok your the best lil bro I could have ever wished for thank you for everything that you do and for blessing my life.
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-JustNoah I know youve been dealing with a lot recently I hope you get better just know I'm always here for you thank you for being apart of my life you always protected me back then you were always there telling me to be myself.. and to not get in danger lol I feel like I've heard that from so many people these days ): lol I recently took your advice and someone who left my life not fully but we never talk anymore but they told me the same thing I told them abt you a few times I said noah said the same thing or something like that haha.. I hope you are doing well and that I can be there for you now sense you were there for me thank you for being someone in my life you are very important to me..
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-And Popcap21 the only popcap I know lol I don't know how you do with sentimental stuff knowing you your probably thinking "o Jesús christ why is she doing this stupid shit" and I know we haven't known each other for ever either but you are someone In my soul and heart that I feel empathy towards I don't know your back ground very well and I feel like every background someone has shapes them as a person so I don't know why every time I try to think abt what it is my brain comes to a stop I cant read you at all its so frustrating and weird. You are someone who I crossed paths with but I also believe things happen for a reason even though you sometimes scare me you make me so curious abt how you ended up the way you are today also thank you for coming into my life you probably don't give 2 shits but you came into my life when I was debating a lot of shitty crap and I feel like it was a sign that you came into my life when you did I swear I'm always at the right places at the wrong time you have showed me yourself your funny your smart and I envy that abt you I just hope deep down inside you are truly ok.. I know you could disappear on me any day and it scares me because of how many friends I lost whether to them hating me or suicide or just not being able to handle me anymore.. your someone who I envy and also appreciate but I know that your the type of person to walk out on when there not feeling it you've said it before So I wonder why you kept talking to me?? just do me a favor if your going to leave or block me one day just tell me so I know I don't want my taped up heart to shatter again please and thanks its been a blessing so far..(:

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